And I beging to fade. So not much has been happening lately besides me losing my mind. I can't seem to gather myself. There's something that's just eating me from within. The only thing that's holding me back from going insane has been music. Nine Inch Nails to be specific. It has been non stop listening to NIN for the past week. Something about them keeps me in place. Maybe I need to find something to do that expresses my feelings more? Then again... I'm not even sure what I feel. I think I just need to be somewhere on my own. I don't know what to do with myself right now. It's becoming quite annoying and frustrating. I'll find my own strength soon to pick and put the pieces together. I feel used and beaten, but can't seem to find what caused such thing. I feel like I'm slowly breaking myself into pieces. I need to forget and forgive to move on. I soon hope to find the place where I belong."What if everything around you isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think you know, is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection is it all you want it to be? What if you could look right through the cracks? Would you find yourself...find yourself afraid to see?
What if all the world's inside of your head just creations of your own? Your devils and your gods, All the living and the dead, and you're really all alone? You can live in this illusion, You can choose to believe, You keep looking but you can't find the woods while you're hiding in the trees..."
Is everything honestly 'right where it belongs?'
