Cities of Night

Well well well...
I haven't updated since that Halloween party, I pretty much hated everyone after that night. Anyways...
Hmm, nothing too big/important has happened. Saw Stellar Corpses again at Gilman and that was pretty fun, been hanging out with Amber a lot lately too. Just school, hanging out/partying it up and...yeah that's it really. OH! Applied for Yogurtland, so far it seems I may have a chance there, I'm supposed to get called in for an interview, I really owe it to Alissa for helping me out on this one! Thanks if you happen to read this! Been drawing a lot more, usually influenced by what I listen to. Oh went to DG for the first time since September. It was tons of fun, but got tired sooo quickly, geesh so many creeps as well! Haha OH OH OH and Limnus will be playing at a Richmond party. Yay. Hmmmm......... Oh yeah my school dad is taking/paying for some of the recent WP seniors for graduation...He didn't even attend my graduation... :/ This ALWAYS comes back to haunt me...

"One overdoes just to survive."




On another note,
I've been mentally isolating myself, obviously I'm there hanging with you, but my mind is usually else where or I feel as if no one is around at times...I don't know how to explain it...But yeah it's been making me far more observant though and somewhat has been changing me...Not sure where this phase is taking me, but I'm curious to know.
Also, being out in Berkeley makes me see a lot different things and people...I ran into a homeless friend of mine, he's probably like 16 or 17 years old. I met him over a year or two ago on Telegraph, he told me he was homeless, but I didn't buy it...later on I ran into him again at the 99 cent store and he had gotten adopted by a lesbian couple, then again I ran into him, he bailed on the ones who adopted him and went back to being a homeless kid...I ran into him today..well technically yesterday... he really was a homeless kid...he had a scabbed/damaged body, had bad personal hygiene and barely got by, but he was happy and smiling. It made me wonder why myself and a lot of other of my friends seem to be so mad at the world when we have the shit we want or even more...A homeless kid is happy?... It was just a slap in the face, reality had just hit me extremely hard...

So why are we all mad?
I mean, I know I'll remain mad and/or upset and so on...but I won't know why...or have a good reason to be...


"Go on, take everything, take everything I want you to...Hey, Im the one with no soul one above and one below"



I could sure use a quick fix...