I'd tell you all these things but I can't speak because...

...I'm dead, I'm dead, my life is life no more. I'm dead, I'm dead, your bullets cut into my flesh...Now I will haunt you in your dreams, never another restful sleep. I'll forever be by your side. In life you're victim, death your bride. My memory will haunt you when you're awake or asleep because...I'm dead...



Brief replay of the past few weeks: So I'm not fired after all. Yay. I have about $450 saved up for a car...Doing the usual, drinking, working and living this life. Been talking to a lot of the crust punks, homeless and crazy people out in Berkeley lately. They're all very interesting people. I never thought about asking if they're happy. It got brought to my attention a few days ago. A lady told me to ask some homeless guy if he was happy, I was watching his stuff... So when he came back I asked him, are you happy he smiled and said, "yeah!....no..I'm not happy...I want to go home I can't wait till I go back..." Makes me wonder why they do it sometimes... Just makes me really think about happiness and life and all...

Lovelife=confusion. Being lead on and then nothing happening after that is fucking annoying. So FUCKING STOP IT! I'm not a lovey dovey type of person. Hah.

Oh yeah, I ripped my ear open. It was pretty awesome! Haha Thanks Alissa for taking care of me, love youuuuuuuuuuu. <333366666666666699999999



Today : Coffee, train tracks, cigarettes, graffiti, the ghetto/old neighborhood, my high school, Bay Bridge, Indian food, the City at night, gelato, Castro, a beautiful view of the city, more coffee, muni, bart and tons of reminiscing . That was my day. ♥
It had been a while since I spent time with my school dad, I spent half of the day with him. I feel bad for taking up his time seeing how busy he is now a days, but I had a lovely day with him. I needed this, I think we both needed this to be honest. It feels as if we started a new and improved chapter in our life, it had almost been a year of awkwardness and lack of socializing... I hope that changes after today. I never want to lose someone like him... Thanks for everything...